미안.

미안.

Sometimes things don't go the way you want them to. All you can do, walk along or bring it to the right place. People just are too lazy but just follow along. Never did they realise a bigger door is there after the curb.

Do what you should do. The life is yours, it's your choice to make.

Me too. I have almost made all the wrong choices for me. But people around me makes me feel safe.

Making all the right choices but without a single true soul by your side? You still feel lonely when you are standing with a crowd.

I don't know. Not now. Whether the choices I make is right.

Everyday, I remind myself to stand in the right path but I always stray myself somewhere else. How to stay focus?

People might find their life bad and see my life good. It's just the surface. I might be smiling by now but you got no idea what's hiding behind that smile. It's just a cover, to put all the sadness aside for just awhile.

Something that happened three years ago changed my life. One person less to love me.

You always ask me why I disappeared the whole week that year. All I did was smile back. I never spoke a word about it to you. I don't want to feel sympathised. Or maybe I should say, I never wanted to accept that fact he's gone forever.

He always scolded me. I thought he loved my sister more. But I was wrong. Before he went to that faraway place, he asked everyone to take care of me. Why? I never had a single teardrop after he went off.

Nobody knew tears were all lost during the showers. Nobody.

I regret whatever I did to you. If only time could turn back now.

미안 아버지.



- JUNIOR